Confidence

That's been my main focus with Cal, I think.  I don't know if it's because I've been paying attention to it or what, but Cal's been really unconfident lately.  It's getting me down.  I want to progress and all I find myself doing is the same things over and over again.  I play for 3 hours and barely Cal finds safety and comfort and begins wanting to play.

I'm so jealous of all the people around me with their LB horses.  They play for a month and have their horse putting four feet on the pedestal and getting into the trailer confidently...I play for 4 years and can't even get my horse to the play area confidently, much less do anything with confidence.

I hate that I get so upset about this.  Every morning I wake up saying, "Today is going to be a good play day!"  By the end of the day I just want to cry.  Actually, I did cry after my session today.  I just don't know how to help my horse.